To the Music?

Rhythm, Either you got it or you don't. That's just a lie that black people say to white boys in the barracks to explain why we dance "like a retarded seal" But in truth, we all have a steady, consistent pace. Just because the world doesn't hear the music you dance to, doesn't mean its not there.

I have found my Battle Rhythm. That is the Army's way of saying I got settled into what I will be doing. Mostly that means being able to wake up and fall asleep on time, get hungry at the right time, etc etc. I'm very pleased that I can adapt to the things I need to do. Everything will go according to plan, because we are all just little solos in Gods master rhythm

9600 hours

1 O God, where art thou? And where is the pavilion that covereth thy hiding place?

2 How long shall thy hand be stayed, and thine eye, yea thy pure eye, behold from the eternal heavens the wrongs of thy people and of thy servants, and thine ear be penetrated with their cries?

       There are many times in my life that I feel I need to just do it.... ya know? like the dishes, you see them and you say "Self, just do it." I was expecting this deployment to be like that. It was to be just another nuisance in my life that displaces plans all together. (Not to say that they were good plans, they were held together with duct tape)

      It has been much harder than that, much, much harder. To start with, I didn't know the first couple of days would be this emotionally painful being away from Ashelyn and Addy. As I gather around with the men in my barracks to have another sausage filled night, I seem to be stalking Ash on Facebook, more or less just so i remember what a girl looks like.

      I do have a confession, I have let myself go since AIT about a year ago. Back then, running was annoying because it wasted my time. I could go through the motions of Physical Training with no worries.  I have been enlisted into the Darnell School of Smoke U. Sergeant Darnell likes me to do at least 20 pushups every time I see him, now that we live in the same floor, that is often.  The first day we ran over 3.5 miles to get us "acclimatized." Yesterday, we ran suicides (Google it) along with squats and bench presses. 

7 My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;

 8 And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.

      Today has been my break through. I am still missing my girls, but the pain is manageable. SGT Darnell, in his infinite wisdom, let me work out myself.  This allowed me to run at my pace a.k.a a little slower, and it allowed me to practice my strides.... along with letting my mind run.

      The lights are out. so I must retire, but I will be glad that I served my country.  I know I will succeed in what I do, but until then, it is a long painful road